You ever feel that way? That something is just so wrong that it is right? We "share" family members. His relation is by way of marriage, mine by way of blood.
Older. Smoothe. Smart. Wierd. Funny. Deceptive. Mysterious.
Confusing...
Yup that's all him. But its been two years since we made that connection...and he's still here, and -I'm- still here...talking, relating, discussing. He is the first person i spent countless productive hours with on the phone discussing relationships, human nature, religion, love, struggle, -everything-, Wow is all I can say the more I think about it.
We hit it off way too easily. I knew then and there that he was different, and honestly, he's had me...since then. We've had eachother because even with all my bullshit that I've fed him, he still ends up on the other side of my phone line saying "Yeah...uh. I don't even know why I'm calling you right now". And I take it. Just as he takes it. We both know what it is. But we play games...
Of course, if you meet someone who is -exactly- like you, youre going to want to play. You are going to want to play, because now, instead of driving yourself crazy internally with all the mental games you play with --yourself-- you get to play the games with your mind, extenally with that other person.
IF we let ourselves fall....., we will fall hard, and beautifully.
Like two puzzle pieces viloently put together,
We will be happy to be together in the end.
That's just the way it is, .we fit..., compliment, and helpeachother.
I'm excited because this is going to be, has been,, wil be:
.scary.uplifting.spiritual.happiness.passion.understanding.
.right.
and most of all..
.incredible.
yeah, all of that.
....::and then some::.....
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you know what i was thinking about though... everyone is looking for love.. looking for the one... everyone wants to be happy with someone... but when it lands in their lap what happens? they think it's too good to be true 'too wrong to be right'.. they get scared that it'll turn out like everything else.. and sometimes playing games can make you miss an opportunity..
and even say you take the opportunity... even then... people are so tempted by their curiosities.. like.. damn... my relationship with so and so might actually last... maybe i should have waited.. maybe i should have fooled around a lil longer... i never even gave this person or that person a chance.. i wonder what theyre like..
i guess what i'm sayin if you gonna dive in this pool you gotta be ready to get wet (no homo)... no towel breaks... but it's up to you whether you wanna jump in now... or play in the sand a lil longer..
me...
i'm drownin baby...
mmm you're so right.
in the case of me n him i think we knew those things (this might actually last, lemme give so and so a chance..etc) the whole time, which made it easier for us to play those games with eachother because the games bought us some more time...but i think we're both running out of games to play...and time.
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