Stimulation

I think my inability to form close and lasting relationships with people comes parlty from the fact that I have a passion for things that stimulate my brain in new and exciting ways. I am unable to form relationships with people who don't stimulate my brain and make me thing of things in ways i've never thought of before. All other relationships I have-excluding familial relationships are superficial essentially. If I don't want to be around someone a lot or often, it is probalby because they don't stimulate my mind. Looking at the world in life in general from all different angles and perspectives is a great thing. It is more than that, it is beautiful. Lately I've been realizing more and more that the missing object often times in my life is stimulation. I love the feeling that arises as a consequence of exploring the depths of my mind and whatever other asects of myself that make me a living entity. With all of these feelings and ideas, swimming around my head just waiting to be discovered, One of the most satisfying experiences I've had as of late have to do with discoverig that my thoughts and the way I view the world could be enhanced and changed for the better with the presence of others who are equally as motivated to explore the dangers that lie outside the box.


Reaching an understanding with someone based off of these desires and ideas is the culmination of all the good feelings a person feels in the time spand of a month. I begin to feel dead inside when I do not feel the motivtion and desire that are characteristic of the rush I get when I discover something about my everyday life that I so causally have overlooked in my 20 years of existence. Subsequent evaulations of these everday phenomenon lead me to ask hoards of questions all begingin with the words "what if" and followed b explanations full of "and thens" and "maybes" with a few "buts" sprinkled in there to keep things interesting and to cover all the baeses. 


There are so many things in the world left to be thought about. Use your imagination to think of the things nobody has ever thought of before. No matter how crazy,ridiculous or insane. Ideaas are ideas and nothing great has ever been deciphered or discovered without the formulation of ideas.